:)grateful

spent my christmas in a peaceful manner:) hahas it was just nice to have everyone trying to sit around the rectangle table for the dinner on christmas eve..and as usual, mum didnt cook, so we ordered fastfood which was unhealthy but it was also my sis and my fav..=P...quiet precious time together ever since dad dont come home daily anymore..coming back home only every weekend..:( so when there's a long holiday, we are happy:) christmas that day, we went shopping!!! *(for a pair of shoes which my sis need...and since all of us couldn't decide on which pair of shoes is the best..we didnt buy...after hours of walking around in suntec...but strangely, we bought lots of fruits..like grapes, cherries and even a mini-basket of kiwis!! fruit day..oh well)...

then spent the remaining days of this week slacking...and doing random stuff like making a werid pair of earrings which are unequal in length..one long one short...but it fits me totally cos my ear hole is one higher than the other..=P..hmm..and when im bored, i will just randomly call people..late-night calls again!! but usually i ended up calling the same person..it's just amazingly how 2 strangers can talk for 2 over hours...hahas...ranging from weird stuff like soccer to kids-enrolment into schools...hahas...

hmm like one particular sentence that my friend said. 'surrender all your problems to God and dont take them back'. particularlylike the phrase 'dont take it back'..

oh, and weather is really nice today..no rainy day!! went with sis to vivo ( and went with her there yesterday..we just cant get tired of that place:) ..went daiso( is it the way to spell it?)...and spent a very very long time...she simply love looking for her stuff (which comprises of cute notepads, writing materials,handicraft thingy...)...ahahas and we spent a short while walking ard the rooftop...looking around...:)

:)thanks to that particular someone for all the advice he gave me- you really help a lot:) *wink*

dreams. beautiful dreams. Do you ever have such beautiful realistic dreams that you dont wish to wake up? hmm let me explain what im trying to say...like for example, since young, though Im in a realistic dream, i knew that i was just a dream and i would get out of it soon. So, when i was young, *(even now), if Im having a beautiful dream, i wish that i will never have to wake up from it.

hmm shall not elaborate on my dreams ba...coz i think if i try describing it here, i will most prob. take the entire entry explaining it. now to wishes......i wish...that i will just get a job now and work..the workholic within me is complaining...

i wanna go overseas again!! i simply love that feeling of being totally relaxed, just enjoying the scenery around you, and spending all your money away! if only we can just sit around and shop, without having to work..hmm that would be totally awesome and great...haiz, but there's no free lunch in this world.

on sat went shopping with peggy...super funny because both of us were like 30 mins late, and thgt that one another just simply got fed up of waiting and ran away...she accompanyed me to the tution center to hand up my result slip before beginning our weird shopping trip. went kino to spend away the book vouchers that i had *(since march 06, and they are gonna expire in March 07). And in the end, i didnt buy any books..realised that the worst gift that i can received is BOOK VOUCHERS!! Because i DONT really like books, and having to find books that I truly like is a very very very very difficult task.........To begin with, sometimes i just don't know what I want. =P it's just the feeling.Besides the book-shopping trip, we went snacking..ice cream!! and managed to walk from centerpoint ( ard that area OG) to taka, then to plaza sing. I nearly died walking, because of the painful shoes *(which were the ones I wore for prom, those short heeled, but they have the weird division of toes pattern)...talked abt many stuff and realised that old good peggy is still the best:) hahas..desserts...she loves desserts which are cold on the outside, but hot on the inside...but for me, it's pretttttyyy desserts. *wink** hahas..guess that only we know what we are talking about....

Hmm sometimes we often ask ourselves whether what we did were worth it, and usually we came to no conclusion. And even if we did, we will be full of regrets and the only statement will be 'if only ......'. Yupp, I often have such feelings of regrets..regretting things that I did, or things that I didnt do. But from the short talk that I had with Peggy *( in the very noisy foodcourt of plaza sing), i realised that it's these regrets that make life beautiful.

A too perfect life, where everyone make the correct choices, is simply too fake. Regrets make you think more and sometimes thinking is good. It allows you to mature in a way, so that if you are in such a similar situation, you roughly know what to do. In short, to me, regrets=growing up process. Though I have regrets, Im just glad that I made such actions and managed to learn sorta a lesson from it. Life is just like a book with many endings.( rmb that kind of game book?). We started out from a common point, but different actions led us to different endings. Whatever we did, Im just glad for your brief encounter in my life. Even though it's just a case of our shoulders briefly rubbing across one another's. :)

Yeah, enough to saying about life. It's just one of my random thinking, deep thinking days...:)

oh today we have a mini birthday celebration for mandy!! although it kinda dunno look like one:) but we managed to have fun!! watching tv, watching funny jap/kor groups doing the drama thingy, as well as watching the potential 'couple' watching tv together, playing chess together too!! hahas...claire's cooking is nice..super nice chicken wings..:)happy me, and got chocolate pudding to eat:) hahas...and thank god i managed to reach home quick enough. After i stepped into the house, minutes later, it began to rain even heavier!! oh man, sometimes i just love and hate the rain!! HATE: I cant go swimming!! If only, i can swim in the rain...*(without having the danger of dying and having a bbq hair)*....LOVE: I like the refreshing smell of the rain..the slow walk in the rain..awww...simply nice and sweet!

oh man...rainy days..dunno whether to love or hate.

And i just can't believe that 2 years just past liao..haiz..and this year is coming to an end!! aww...next year have to start work liao, and i most probably teaching primary school kids maths....:) hope that i can impart the passion and thirst for knowledge to them:) hahas..*( i dunno why but i just seemed to see mandy laughing....for those poor horrified pri.sch.kids...)

Good or bad, Im just glad. This's fate:)

hahas...back from my holidays. hough i have been to Bangkok for many times, i still find it nice to shop=P my shopping paradise. And i managed to buy everything using my SD90 budget:) happy me:)

hmm lets start with prom night thingy. It was really fun doing makeup, looking at how others transformed greatly..super fun..hmm the pre-prom meeting to do stuff was nice-waxing, doing nail, watching the rest fan-girling..hahas..then the dinner was ok la, though it's kinda a bit cheapo and not to the standard....:) and nearly everyone has blogged about the prom already...so i guessed that looking at the photos will be more useful than writing it out..lazy me=P

Ok back to my trip-spending 4 days in Bangkok.

DAY 1:

I think i woke up at 0430 in the morning, and reached Bangkok about 1100( Bangkok time, which is one hour earlier than Singapore time)...then we went to the weekend market to shop...and bought lots of stuff.. and spent half of my budget without me knowing!! *the earrings then are really cheap...SD0.45.....and i realised that i didnt take a photo of the market, which was very very very crowded and we needed to be careful with our bags, in case we got pickpocketed. Then at night, we went to my mummy's favourite place MBK...to shop...and eat..ducks and chicken and red pork thingy..and by then, i already consumed about 3 cups of coke..kinda scared of it....

DAY 2: The most tiring day i ever had.

Managed to crawl out of bed early to catch some parts of the sunrise from the hotel window.

Went to walk around, checking out markets before shopping in the nearby shopping centres..super tiring, coz we couldnt find lifts or escalators..and we climbed lots, lots flights of stairs!! :( Then at night, the night market was super dark..and we kinda bought nothing..but i think the region this particular night market is, happens to be in the red district region....lots of weird looking beautiful thai girls wearing kinda nothing...

DAY 3:

Today we went for a half day trip..to the Chao Praya River which was 1380m long!! Hopped onto a boat which toured around the Chao Praya River, before

letting us go onto this island which sells lots of clothes and the usual stuff like necklaces, statues....After that, we went to the four-faced Buddha and the Gems gallery (which dont allow cameras to be switched on...so no pictures)

After the trip, we went snacking..actually we snacked a lot during this trip..=P kinda worried that i would not be able to fit into those clothes i bought...because they fit exactly and what if they shrink?stupid me only realised it when i reached the hotel..haiz...blur me..

At night, we went to another night market...actually it's supposed to be a group tour but i guessed that the other groups were too tired for it..so the tour guide simply came to the hotel, gave us the money and told us to take a cab!! bad tour guide!! poor service!! anyway, we managed to flag a cab, and reached there safely.*phew* it's kinda scary coz the driver was driving very fast...and we had heard of many stories of tourists going missing after taking cabs in Thailand...hahas...in the end, nothing happened to us. Hmm the night market was kinda like the weekend market we went to on Sat and Sun...so we didnt buy a lot of stuff...and I saw this super huge and bright Ferrais Wheel!!! Very cool....but we didnt go for a ride in it..coz im scared of heights:(

DAY 4:

Nothing much, just trying to pack everything into my bags...:) the driver was very very late, and freaked us out, because we only have about 2 hours to reach the airport before boarding, and he was still waiting for more passengers!!! In the end, thank god he decided not to wait and drove us there to the airport...but there was a huge jam....and we waited for quite some time, before the jam cleared and he sped all the way there...scary...After that, i realised that sitting in the plane can also be quite scary too....I will never fly with Thai Airways...super freaking, when the lights suddenly go off, and the plane just kinda have an abnormal landing way....

Hmm after 4 days, im finally back here and im glad.

hmm back here again, after being bored..playing games...watching tv, talking....haiz...

oh..im done with prom shopping liao..:) managed to get my earrings from far east, only to realise the next day that i can actually get one pair much cheaper..and nicer than the one i bought. Oh well...:(hmm..shopping done..so now im kinda looking forward to prom:) yeah...more fun doing our hair and makeup together on that day at karmen's place!!:)

then after that, i shall go Thailand and shop shop shop>>>>.....

hmm tired,tired, very very tired!!! my legs died, after wearing that about 8cm heels..just tell that im useless:( haiz..i dunno why but i also wear my new heels whenever i go shopping with wy and wr..hahas..but yesterday's shopping trip is fun!! as usual, wy is NEVER early..late for one hour..thank god, wr is always on time, so we walked, talked, shopped and ate, before wy came...:) super funny, met wr like after 2 years? but we all looked the same..super funny to hear all the interesting stories of wr and wy..hmm..scandalous*..:) and they became salegirls of the day!! teaching me every thing about makeup..*(they are trying..but they have not teach me everything yet)..from buying....to removing..but what abt applying?? hmm....hahas..but super funny...walking to and fro...trying on dresses..then going to vivo with my mum..then feeling that urge to buy the dress so i took a cab and bought the dress, before going wild with wy..shopping in cine..

super tiring..i fainted when i reached home.:( but im going to continue go shopping....shopping at Bugis Street next week.. i think...done with the dress, now is the bag, shoes, and earrings:)

oh, i saw karmen at vivo!! *(she saw me first...)hahas..at first, i was like 'i thot i heard someone calling hl..'but i thot there's some many hl there so i just walked....and it turned out to be me..=P blur pok me!

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sometimes i just dunno why things are so complicated when they can actually be simple. Sometimes, simple actions like saying 'i care' just seem difficult. haiz..it's just so true that every family has its own problems.

but i shall not be overcomed by it. I will overcome it.:)

hmm my itchy fingers..wondering what i just did to my blog..the blogskin and everything seem to disappear and the blogskins i have just cant fit into the blog..weird..hmm..

*phew* exams are finally over..glad that i managed to survive, all with the help of God..He never fail to surprise me and carry me through everything:) oh, yesterday's celebrations for Claire's bday was funny..we were kinda stoning at first at cine with that background music that replayed and replayed at least 50 times...stonning while eating...before we finally decided on toasting..hahas..trying on the dress was super funny la..getting stuck and dangled up in the dress...and just dunno what to do..:( hahas..thank god that claire was there...

hmm shopping spree starts now...im gonna shop and shop till i drop...:) and swimming next week^.^....then prom...and going to Thailand for some mass retailing...hahas...

hmm it has really been a long time ever since I last blogged. :) anyway, im back for a short while!! hmm realised that study breaks= study breaks in sch, but at home, study breaks= shopping breaks...simply just cant believe that i actually went shopping at this crucial point in my life..vivocity..haiz..i shall just stay in sch in the future...:) and study with peggy and the two of us shall just go crazy in the NL together...

talking about studying in the NL..it is simply great.. it just makes me feel nice and calm..unlike LT3 where all the people started talking..super noisy as well as in the hub. Still prefer our old good NL..hahas :)...hmm studying in the NL is funny because peggy and I went crazy on thursday and started singing..in the NL..thank god that the windows in NL are made up of plastic..or else..hahas..and of course, we got chased out, like everyday la...:)

hmm maybe im kinda retarded but i kinda miss school..i actually miss sch!!!! haiz...i miss the people...and i simply just cant believe that two years have just passed ( or close to 2 years)...both me and peggy agreed that we have matured a lot during the course of this period of time..:) and what truly happens is not the outcome, but the course of maturing..we get to really learn a lot of things...on how to deal with all the studying, cramming in everything..whether last time or not and for me, i got to know God..and though many times I really doubt...doubting about every single thing, He just stood next to me and accompany me throughout. And though there is times whereby my family doubt what sort of Christain I am, ( because they have prejudice against Christain), Im glad that He gave me strength to overcome things....come to think of it, Its just truly amzaing on how i actually survived and all these were with God's grace...because it's really impossible for someone to go through the period of 2 years..having to deal with hectic work schedule, relationship and friendships problems, a mum with depression, a cranky dad, as well as having to deal with things that were from your past and just happened to surface, as well as experiencing things and realizing that what you believe in, isnt what you believe in....soo many things...and i survived. hahas...

what i can say now is that Im no longer the girl who first arrived at the blue metal gate of ACJC...

I want to be an eagle...soaring..:)

hahas...received this verse many times, so decided to share it with you guys. This verse is the very first verse that I received, and it meant a lot to me, and i hope that those who see this verse will be truly blessed.:)

" But those who hope in the Lord,
shall renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles,
They will run and grow weary,
They will walk and not be faint. "

:) just soar

back again:)

hmm the haze is kinda having a bad bad impact on me:( i got sensitive skin, so when the haze comes, the itch comes.arghh...*scratch* realised that the act of scratching is contagious, because when my sis started scratching ( both of us have sensitive skin), i saw her and started scratching..super bad...haiz..

anyway, studying plans are kinda screwed up, so i decided to take a break. Managed to do a few things and smsing liz was super funny..when two blur ppl started smsing, the content of the sms can really be misunderstood..hahas...anyway, cant believe that this coming wed is gonna be the last day of school...hmm...it really really seemed as though i just stepped into acjc for a short period of time, and now it's time to go...kinda sad, but guessed that it's life. Life is full of gatherings and separations...

anyway back to the topic of leaving school..hmm now I realised that what teachers say are true..usually to a large extent. JC life really makes you grow up a lot..really a lot. And if you managed to go through jc life, you will be a much stronger person. And now i agreed.

As in, during these two years, I kinda know more about pple and their feelings. In the past, Im kinda strict and demanding..(in a sense) and now I really know how to compromise and listen to others rather than having them to listen to me all the time...and i have knew patience and tolerance...a lot a lot of things. Experienced a lot of different types of emotions: happiness, love, joy, sadness, sorrow....and learnt how to deal with them better ( and now im still learning:) hmm ......haiz...how come i sound so so....weird...never mind.

oh... i managed to stay awake during this entire week of devotions (except for tues') and out of all, what i like most are thurs and fri ones...:) the drawing of what is peace...if im the one drawing, i will most probably draw the one with the storm...staying in peace, contented despite the storm, for i know whatever happens, as long as i give my best and trust Lord, he will take care of the rest:)

yesterday was the last maths lecture..kinda a bit sad...same as amanda..learnt quite a lot from ms pang...and will kinda miss her..and during this last maths lecture, i drew a small pic...showing LT2...

hmm anyway she is one of the teachers that i will remembered...



hmmm hmmm the hazzzeee is really making me crazy liao..anyway to make things worse, i guess that my house's air quality is worse, wth the burning of joss sticks..*choked*

oh well...:)

:) hmm just randomly feeling happy:) hahas..

oh..staying late in sch to study is kinda cool and weird. It's like when its 8 pm, i think that its 6.45am in the morning. Basically the sky looks the same...whether night or early morning.:) But i kinda like the night sky. The sch night sky is kinda nice...clear sky..though i wish to see some stars..hmm back to studying, yesterday and the day before yesterday were pretty stressful days..due to econs. Econs stress me out. Maths made me happy:) realised that once you feel the beat and energy you cant just do and do maths forever. :) And jamie told me that now doing maths may be fun, but once it becomes your job, it wont be fun anymore. I disagree!!

I used to doubt. But now i know that deep down inside, i will do maths forever...it's kinda my childhood dream to be a mathematican..so have you seen a mathematican that doesnt do maths for her entire life? :)
feeling rather encouraged after reading xiao yuan's blog..optimism simply fills her blog entry...:) no matter, even if it's studying or overcoming all other problems, I will hang on and excel :)

im me. i never give up. im just me. :)

happy random me:) the night sky is just beautiful, without you around:)

finally got prelims results..was rather disappointed..but i guess that i did ok...according to other people's standards. After this exam, all i wanna say is that i couldnt have done all these without the help of God....and this time im certain that He helps me. Because....he is the one who answer my prayer at that point in time....though im kinda guilty for all the things i did- having no time to read the bible...:(- He still carried me through.

Rather grateful for everything. And now, it's time to refocus on stuff....new focus, new energy, new spirit, new me.

Read a few blogs here and there. For those out there who are disappointed with your results, work super hard !! Excellent results are nothing but the result of hard work. Though i admit that at times luck plays a part too.

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oh i came across this weird quotation...it says that the most inexpensive form of science is maths..because all you need is a pencil, calculator and lots of paper. :) no expensive equipment required...( like for chemistry..and bio...)

currently listening to jay chou's song..that one with fei yu qing...i still think that i like fei yu qing better...he is forever my idol.:0

the day before the results are released. hmm feeling kinda heavy today...random surfing around..reading blogs..then saw brandon's blog...hmm..after reading, my only comment is: I must study hard...anyway, it is true that we are responsible for the results whether they are good or bad. I just wanna study hard now.

and for tml, now i just leave everything to God's hands.

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hmm....watching drama yesterday.....kinda boring, but still continued watching coz anyway today it is gonna be the last episode..addicted to it...hmm talking abt addiction, i guessed that im addicted to tea! :( haiz....

A very very fine line separates love and hate. Just go ahead and love and hate.

I just hate people who remind me of the past.

random typing today...

now feeling a mixture of feelings..weird dreams, empty, yet trying to be happy, jumping around the house like a...dunno what to say...walking around, laughing at random things, thinking, and breathing in the fresh air outside my house, anyway, i kinda live next to a forest...

something just grew on my eyelid..it's kinda a lump of flesh..pretty gross, hoping that it doesnt grow bigger and block my vision...

.....................................................wake up...wake up....stop sleeping anymore le....now it's time to work..........................

kinda sleeping and sleeping for these days....super piggy liao....

anyway, today i feel much better than yesterday...yesterday was like..the ultimate saddest day...and today is much much better...todays are forever better than yesterdays.....

sometimes i just think that we are just like photographers...some people like to take photos of pretty things..and zoom in...whereas other people like to zoom in on sad stuff...

life sometimes it's just like going for a wedding dinner....with all these nice stuff..as well as not-so-nice-to-eat stuff ( to me, it's veg...sea cucumber esp.)...but no matter we still need to eat them. Whether the dishes are good or bad, we need to eat them all. And since we have to eat them no matter what, i guess it is better for us to eat them happily then.

random stuff....oh, i made tea today...i love bitter chinese tea...:) that bitter after taste is nice:)

hmm yesterday went to watch The Host with clique..super funny la..we kept laughing when the stupid giant mutated squid, or fish ran around..i think im kinda crazy liao, that i still wanna eat fried squid after the show.....anyway, after that, we went to the HK restaurant to eat, then took a few photos, before rushing home to watch tv...but after that, heard quite a few unpleasant stuff....haiz, what can i say? It's a sad life..

.i just wanna cry.

kinda sad today, when i stepped out of house...however, xiao yuan and peggy never failed to cheer me up...one blur blur peggy...and one weird xiao yuan with that weird blue hairband..hahas..cant help but smile...today we went to xy's house to study..and the results are quite ok, because i ended up teaching xy maths..but i think it's kinda cool to teach because you kinda get to revise concepts..:) then after that, we talked, joked, eat, laugh...that feeling is truly great...that reassuring feeling that there's always someone for you no matter what....as in literally...oh, and me and xy made tea...jasmine tea which tasted like chinese tea...and i drank like 3 cups...that's why now im kinda sleepy...im just one weird gal who can sleep after drinking tea, or coffee..:)

still sad, but at least now im much better liao..i wanna go to her house to study again....her house is super quiet..and when we study, we are really quiet..that we can even hear her fan vibration..and what's more, her house is deep inside..kinda hard to get in :) secluded place...

oh gosh, now im listening to "sway' by pussycat dolls...it's so random...so oldie...

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if you want the bird to learn how to spread its wings and fly, you must learn to let go and let it soar....

hmm woke up super early today!! 6 45!! coz my dad is going to the airport and there's no one in the hse to lock the door for him -.- haiz..and after he woke me up, i couldn't sleep liao...haiz....maths day..a bit for me..gradually warming up..feeling the beat...123..:)

anyway, today's a gonna be a super duper great shopping day for me!! shopping later!! yeah!! anyway, i finally understand why people kinda worry too much..and i worry too much too...anyway, just target at the root cause to ur worry and you will never have the worry anymore!! for mine...my root cause is insecurity...i will try to work on that...

hmm today is 2 sept..and we celebrated sis's bday today!! :) supposed to celebrate it yesterday, but daddy last minute got stuff on..haiz...and at first, we were rather worried that today we cant celebrate because i was supposed to have tution..then i prayed and after that, my tution teacher called to shift tution to sun's afternoon..cool right? bet it is..:) prayer power:)

anyway, yesterday was like a massive workout day for me..cleaning 3/8 of my bedroom for 12 hours..just think of how much fats you can burn just by cleaning and cleaning, lifting files after files...as well as how much brain juice you can squeeze by just trying to recall where on earth do you put those files amidst those messy paper files...in the end, i managed to turn the paper castle into a clean nice workplace for me :) tired but happy :) oh then after that, i was soo bored that i started calling people..the usual people then the random ones..super funny..called karmen..then after quite a few..then i called irwin..and then i just pestered him...hahas..

back to today..went for the usual stuff..like poking needles on my back again..(every sat) haiz..then...i read a book...for the very first time..just random found it in the cupboard..:) happy me..

just random thoughts here and there..think a bit today..thoughts made up who you are. happy thoughts= happy me.....and i just found a way to relieve stress...that is...i will write down all the unhappy stuff on a piece of paper , then i will shred it into pieces..the shredding motion just makes me happy again...weird stress relief way, but up to now, it works.

gradually feeling the mood...just to feel the beat within me..that music...that passion....:)

oh..today we went seafood center to celebrate sis's bday..super happy..we called lots of yummy stuff..like me and my sis's fav you tiao...then the fried frog legs..followed by the pork and mutton satay, the prawns, the crabs and the noodles..super full...and totally not guilty at all!! because i have decided to fatten myself up a bit :) if it exceeds, then i will try to exercise ( over my dead body:) hahas.....

i wanna wanna wanna buy that dress...super nice:)
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things that made me happy today:)
1. Though the acupuncture thingy was painful, daddy was in it together with me. He also had his legs acupunctured. So when two suffering together is better than one! :)
2. Being able to just take a short afternoon nap and feel totally refreshed..as though my batteries were recharged:)
3. Simply just eating!
4. Laughing loudly at my sister on how she was running away from a flying moth, which wasnt even chasing her!
5. Just sitting down...or rather hiding at a corner reading my book...
6. Watching dramas..
7. Typing my blog...
8. Just thinking of what im going to do in the short-term future, as well as long-term future...

you guys may think that it's a bit stupid for listing down all these things..but they truly make me happy!

anyway, now im making an effort to make....being happy a habit:) hahas...

Journey back crescent:)

i absolutely love that song on peggy's blog:) hmm realised that her blog sounds a bit like mine..hahas..anyway, no matter happen, we will always stick together k? girl power:)

hmm learnt truly a lot during this prelim period..really a lot, whether is it in terms of the quantity of stuff i tried to squeeze into my mind, or other stuff which i shall not elaborate further. truly a lot, and at times, i really hate Lord for forcing soo many things onto me, especially during this period of time, when i should be really really focusing. But im grateful to him, his plans just seems to be unplanned and sudden, yet after everything, you realised that everything just link up. Really grateful to him for making me go through all these..anyway it's either now or later. And he made me go through it now. :) felt a bit relieved. Somehow, the aching feeling just fades away..slowly..

Sometimes i really dunno what im doing..just randomly going out with other people..but now, i know what im doing. It really takes me a lot of time to come to this conclusion.

Yesterday, me and peggy went back to crescent....the school seemed to have change a bit, with the extra security post....dunno remember what we were talking about..before we finally came to the conclusion that luckily crescent didnt have a backgate, or everyone else will be climbing it..super unglam. Going back to crescent really calms me down in a weird manner..it's that old feeling..like going back home..walking down the same old stairs..to the lib...the canteen..:) but we didnt manage to see any teacher!!! especially my lib teacher...pretty sad....it's always like that..haiz..

dunno why but if i have a daughter, i will send her to crescent..:)

then after that, we went shopping :) shopping is my fav habit..but i didnt quite enjoy it...not because the shopping journey..not because of peggy...but i think it's just the aftereffects of prelims..i think the fav part would be when we sat down near the fountain in taka..and peggy commented that it's just great sitting down and slowing down, especially when these few weeks you had been just flying past...at that point of time, i disagreed and said that i loved that fast feeling..but now come to think of it, i agree with her now.

sometimes slowing down is nice..especially when you have been doing things way too fast already..and everyone too..when everything has been moving too fast for you to even breathe..that choking feeling.....which makes you grasp for air..

hmm haiz..this week is resting period..next week is learning-how-to-fly period..oh i watched the korean drama..that guy is super cool...hahas..with that stupid phrase of 'just look at me. only me' something like that..hahas..the drama is super funny la..

..........-open my eyes-...........

love love love:) full of love :) hahas think that im crazy liao.
anyway, now im in a not-exams mood, kinda more of the dazed, silly, crazy mood:) hahas..guessed that stress is making everyone acting strangely..maybe they realised they are acting in that manner, if not, they didnt know lor. hahas..like peggy was so stressed that she started walking around and around me with that stack of bio notes, making me confused and dizzy..as for me, i binge :) and the negative effect is : I kinda boost my metabolic rate more and ended up losing more and more weight..poor me..time to gain weight by?? i really dunno how..eat less= skinny= eat more= still skinny. haiz..

once again, fate is making fun of me...always before a bio paper and i wonder why..hmm..fate...this thingy....the extent is so great that i cant do my maths paper properly and my bio paper too!! peggy kinda helped me to avoid that disaster a bit, but guessed that i still saw in the end...then my heart felt as though it's not there. And now, it's still not there.

werid crazy mood. i was originally sleepy..but now, suddenly super awake:) hais..oh ya, i know it's kinda random but God really really answers prayers in times of need. Experience it today again:)

werid crazy me:)

learnt that weak substitutes will never be able to replace the gap of that particular good. :)

hihi back here again..to blog a short entry during the exams break thingy..

hmm the exams had not been that smooth-sailing, time to buck up and move on..finally understood why people said you never look back when you are running..it's either you run into something, or you ended up slowing down. i often just cant understand simple things until they really happen to me and it's time that i tell myself to let go.

it's truly amazing these days, on how we managed to survive the past few days with little hours of sleep ( or even without) and yet survived. :) anyway jia you everyone..we still have a long way to go!

and im werid again, probably stressed out. the aching feeling is back. all the while i thought that i hid it quite well within me, hiding it deep deep down inside..only to find out that that feeling is so strong at times that it just rose up and it's here again. i think it's time to mature. and probably to carry on with things that you dont have.

went to buy my shoes yesterday..it's red..and after i bought it home, i realised that they kinda looked like karmen's previous pair of shoes...opps..anyway, she is wearing the pink one..so we will not wear the same pair of shoes..hahas..

be strong and be courageous. Do not be terrified, or frightened, for the Lord you God will be with you, wherever you go. This is the phrase that kept surfacing up in my mind, the inner voice.

what will be will be. what's not wont be. this applies to all things :)

happy me decided to post another entry today:)
aching feeling is gradually fading as im suppressing it. and i seem to be doing quite well.
today's gp was mind-blowing...i mean it. Drilling...sentence structuring...never thought that a sentence means soo soo much and there is so much within it. Awesome. This is the word to describe it. Anyway, as usual, I nearly lost my way..luckily i follwed that gay guy in the bus, and alighted at the same stop as him. phew...anyway, for your information, i didnt know that guy. It's just that his dressing is soo...eye-catching..big big specs..gelled up hair..high cut pants..and that werid bag. and the way he shakes his butt as he walks....erm..one word: awesome?? how to shake in such a manner..i really dunno. even women with big butt dun walked in that manner.

hmm..fly away..fly away...:) went jp today...once again, im super terrified by the amount of people coming out of the train carriages..and swarming towards you...and you happened to be against the flow.oh gosh..anyway, i managed to get my high cut jeans...yeah..another pair of new jeans..added to my limited collection of jean..:) walked home from outram..long long walk.

dreams are reflections of what you are thinking of, in the day. it's true. :)

I just wanna embrace. :)