Well, today is totally a nerve-racking day. Actually at the start of the day, I wasn't THAT nervous, instead I was unusually calm. HOwever, as minutes and hours flew, the feeling of anxiety and nervousness raced through my entire body, sending spells of dizziness upon me.
THen, 2.00pm came, however to prolong our pain and mental torture on us, the principal gave us a mini=speech, followed by the teachers. THen, came the pink slips.
As I was nearly the last few to get the results, (well, in fact I was), I was rather nervous, as I have seen joy painted on some people's faces, as well as tears of sorrow rolling off the cheeks of others.
That anxiety was simply too much for me to bear. Then my teacher called my name, and told me that she had been waiting very long for me. Is it a good sign or a bad omen?
I finally received the pink slip, and to be totally blur, it took me about twenty minutes to realize that I have got 9 points.
Everyone told me that I have got 8 points, but in the end, I realise that they have calculated it wrongly ( and me too.) We can't include two chinese marks in the same subject combination.
There goes my 8 points. I simply hate that feelingm it is just like you have the cake in front of you and you was just about to eat, until someone comes and said that you are eating their cake. You are eating the wrong cake instead.
Never mind, I quite satisfied with my results.
For those who have got the results that you desire, congrulations.
However, if you are the ones who are disppointed with your results, don't worry. This examination is only part of our life, it's not worth our while bothering about it, getting troubled by it, and wasting your time and life. Life still have to go on, as the earth will never stop spinning for any of us.
Never have the intention of commit suicide, because that act made your life worthless.
Instead, face obstacles and troubles bravely, in fact embrace them, in order to succeed in your later life.
Monday, February 28, 2005
Sunday, February 27, 2005
A more day left....
Actually, after much thoughts, I had finally set out my thoughts about the separation of our class after the release of results. Although I;m sad, life still have to go on, at least for me.
Will I get 6 points? Or will I get 18 points instead? Towards these 'points'..I'm getting a bit nervous, as well as puzzled. JUst for the sake of getting a good score of a prefect 6 points, many people studied like crazy, but actually in the end, what do we get? All 'A'S in the certificate, or a ticket to a good future? Actually no one knows.
A person who has got 8 points may end up getting all "E" s for her A level. At least, I knew such person.
So...no matter how much I got, I still have to carry on with life. This is the way I console myself....or will I be super depressed after the release of the results tomorrow, washing my face with tears.
Or maybe not, because I don't think that I have the ability to cry anymore.
I seldom cry, in fact I only cry for about four times in my entire life. When I was a baby ( all count as one), when I failed my Maths tests, when I dropped my teeth three in a go...and when I got chickenpox......
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Life is nothing but a dream. Despite of this, you still go to live your life to your fullest to minimise any regrets.
Will I get 6 points? Or will I get 18 points instead? Towards these 'points'..I'm getting a bit nervous, as well as puzzled. JUst for the sake of getting a good score of a prefect 6 points, many people studied like crazy, but actually in the end, what do we get? All 'A'S in the certificate, or a ticket to a good future? Actually no one knows.
A person who has got 8 points may end up getting all "E" s for her A level. At least, I knew such person.
So...no matter how much I got, I still have to carry on with life. This is the way I console myself....or will I be super depressed after the release of the results tomorrow, washing my face with tears.
Or maybe not, because I don't think that I have the ability to cry anymore.
I seldom cry, in fact I only cry for about four times in my entire life. When I was a baby ( all count as one), when I failed my Maths tests, when I dropped my teeth three in a go...and when I got chickenpox......
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Life is nothing but a dream. Despite of this, you still go to live your life to your fullest to minimise any regrets.
Friday, February 25, 2005
Sad Day..
Actually, today should be a happy day for me, because I have no tests, and basically no misfortune happened to me today. However, towards the end of the day, I just can't help feeling sad.
Feeling sad seems to be everyone's nature, when it comes to the separation of the people, just like the people all returning home after a long dinner together. THis sadness just roams the entire empty room, refusing to fade.
How I wish that our class would be together, even after we received our O level results, and the posting of schools. May all of us be together, regardless of anything, coz in my opinion, I think that all our tutors and classes together with all our classmates are fun! Be it the teasing of potential couples, the calling out of names like 'coconut head', no matter what I will still miss everyone,.....even after they leave.
So..I hope that our class would still be together, and forever.
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Actually on earth, separation exist almost everywhere, in the airport, classrooms..and schools.
HOWEVER, it is the separation and the feeling of sadness that made reunion more valuable and precious, and separation also make us strong.
I still like the quotes that our GP teacher let us see today.
I like the last line.
Life is precious, live it!
Jen
May everyone be happy at all times
Feeling sad seems to be everyone's nature, when it comes to the separation of the people, just like the people all returning home after a long dinner together. THis sadness just roams the entire empty room, refusing to fade.
How I wish that our class would be together, even after we received our O level results, and the posting of schools. May all of us be together, regardless of anything, coz in my opinion, I think that all our tutors and classes together with all our classmates are fun! Be it the teasing of potential couples, the calling out of names like 'coconut head', no matter what I will still miss everyone,.....even after they leave.
So..I hope that our class would still be together, and forever.
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Actually on earth, separation exist almost everywhere, in the airport, classrooms..and schools.
HOWEVER, it is the separation and the feeling of sadness that made reunion more valuable and precious, and separation also make us strong.
I still like the quotes that our GP teacher let us see today.
I like the last line.
Life is precious, live it!
Jen
May everyone be happy at all times
Thursday, February 24, 2005
Happier days ahead.
haha...today i have got two tests..however i only studied for one. So when it's time for the geog test, I was panicking..but later i was laughing, giggling towards myself during the test..COZ I DON"T EVEN KNOW A SINGLE QUESTION!!
Anyway, today's a rather enjoyable day, especially during the project work for GP..coz It's the most slack period of the day..however i still have a lot of things to do. As I'm going to take three subjects, i have to ensure that I brush up on every of the three subjects, before i made the switch...in order to see if my choice was right, to restrict myself to one and only three choices.
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What is life after death?
Do we actually go to heaven?
Because someone once told me that when one dies, one turns into a beautiful butterfly, roaming the whole world, or perhaps to guide and be besides your loved ones after your death?
Do we turn into beautiful butterflies, or do we actually go to heaven?
Actually in my opinion, i think that after our death, we no longer exist physically, instead we exist in the hearts of our beloved ones, whether is it in the bodies of beautiful bodies, or in our original selves.
Anyway, today's a rather enjoyable day, especially during the project work for GP..coz It's the most slack period of the day..however i still have a lot of things to do. As I'm going to take three subjects, i have to ensure that I brush up on every of the three subjects, before i made the switch...in order to see if my choice was right, to restrict myself to one and only three choices.
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What is life after death?
Do we actually go to heaven?
Because someone once told me that when one dies, one turns into a beautiful butterfly, roaming the whole world, or perhaps to guide and be besides your loved ones after your death?
Do we turn into beautiful butterflies, or do we actually go to heaven?
Actually in my opinion, i think that after our death, we no longer exist physically, instead we exist in the hearts of our beloved ones, whether is it in the bodies of beautiful bodies, or in our original selves.
Saturday, February 19, 2005
Saturday 19th Feb.
Well, today is a rather sleepy day due to the effects of cough mixture, but anyway here's ur story for the day.
Once Upon A Time, there was a group of friends, or rather angels in the Paradise. They were named Envy, Laziness, Joy, Sorrow and Love, followed by their leader named Madness. After doing nothing for hours, they decided to play a game of hide-and-seek. And as everyone was tired of being a seeker, their leader, Madness became the seeker instead.
And the place to play this game was the Eternal Garden. Finding a oak tree, Madness covered his eyes, with his back facing the rest, and started counting," One...Two...Three..."
While Madness is counting, the rest started hiding... As Joy was so happy, filled with sunshine, she climbed up a tree to overlook the whole garden.
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Minutes soon flew and Madness counted " Seventy Six...Seventy Seven..." still with his eyes closed.
And by now, almost everyone has found an ideal place to hide except...Love. She was still being very indecisive, not sure of where to hide. Behind the tree? Or behing the statue? She thought to herself.
The clock is ticking and soon the last few counts could be heard. " Ninety-eight..ninety-nine...hundred!!" And at the count of hundred, Love simply has no choice but to hide herself in a rose bush.
After counting to hundred, Madness turned around and started to find the rest.
The first one that Madness found was Laziness.`Being so so so lazy, Laziness decided to just lie down next to the fountain of Happiness and waited for Madness to find him.
The next one that Madness found was Joy, mainly because of her laughter. She was so happy that she kept laughing and couldn't control herself....even after Madness has found her, sitting high up on a tree.
THe next next one found was of course Envy and Sorrow, as they were busy quarelling with one another. *( Okay...it was Envy that started the fight, because she was jealous of the fact that Sorrow has a nicer watch than her..and you know what happened after that.. Sorrow's cries brought Madness to them.)
After finding Joy, Laziness, Envy and Sorrow, they proceeded to find Love. But no matter how hard they tried, they still couldn't find her.
In the meanwhile, Love was silently crying while hiding herself in the rose bush, as the thorns of the rose bush were scratching her skin and causing her to bleed.....
Anyway, after a long long long time, Love could not stand the pain at last and finally got out of the rose bush, she saw Madness who was frantically searching for her. And when he saw her, he was relieved, yet worried.
He saw scratches all over her, and that pained him. As Love walked towards him, feeling sad that Madness has found her and due to the fact that she has lost the game of hide-and-seek, she found another surprise instead.
Madness ran towards her and hugged her.
Then he whispered something into her ear.
She smiled, and they lived happily ever after, as couples.
Guess what Madness told Love?
" I have found you. (Madness found love.)
If you are a princess waiting to be saved from the dragon, then I will be the prince with the sword.
If you are a bird, then I will be the big tree, giving you support.
If you are a flower, then I will be the rock, sheltering you from all the winds and rains.
If you are the one for me, then let me be the one taking care of you forever.'
So...they lived happily ever after, in the Garden of Eternal Love.
So now, you know why MADNESS always accompanies LOVE?
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*** So live your day to the fullest day, as if there is no tomorrow.**
Jenn
Once Upon A Time, there was a group of friends, or rather angels in the Paradise. They were named Envy, Laziness, Joy, Sorrow and Love, followed by their leader named Madness. After doing nothing for hours, they decided to play a game of hide-and-seek. And as everyone was tired of being a seeker, their leader, Madness became the seeker instead.
And the place to play this game was the Eternal Garden. Finding a oak tree, Madness covered his eyes, with his back facing the rest, and started counting," One...Two...Three..."
While Madness is counting, the rest started hiding... As Joy was so happy, filled with sunshine, she climbed up a tree to overlook the whole garden.
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Minutes soon flew and Madness counted " Seventy Six...Seventy Seven..." still with his eyes closed.
And by now, almost everyone has found an ideal place to hide except...Love. She was still being very indecisive, not sure of where to hide. Behind the tree? Or behing the statue? She thought to herself.
The clock is ticking and soon the last few counts could be heard. " Ninety-eight..ninety-nine...hundred!!" And at the count of hundred, Love simply has no choice but to hide herself in a rose bush.
After counting to hundred, Madness turned around and started to find the rest.
The first one that Madness found was Laziness.`Being so so so lazy, Laziness decided to just lie down next to the fountain of Happiness and waited for Madness to find him.
The next one that Madness found was Joy, mainly because of her laughter. She was so happy that she kept laughing and couldn't control herself....even after Madness has found her, sitting high up on a tree.
THe next next one found was of course Envy and Sorrow, as they were busy quarelling with one another. *( Okay...it was Envy that started the fight, because she was jealous of the fact that Sorrow has a nicer watch than her..and you know what happened after that.. Sorrow's cries brought Madness to them.)
After finding Joy, Laziness, Envy and Sorrow, they proceeded to find Love. But no matter how hard they tried, they still couldn't find her.
In the meanwhile, Love was silently crying while hiding herself in the rose bush, as the thorns of the rose bush were scratching her skin and causing her to bleed.....
Anyway, after a long long long time, Love could not stand the pain at last and finally got out of the rose bush, she saw Madness who was frantically searching for her. And when he saw her, he was relieved, yet worried.
He saw scratches all over her, and that pained him. As Love walked towards him, feeling sad that Madness has found her and due to the fact that she has lost the game of hide-and-seek, she found another surprise instead.
Madness ran towards her and hugged her.
Then he whispered something into her ear.
She smiled, and they lived happily ever after, as couples.
Guess what Madness told Love?
" I have found you. (Madness found love.)
If you are a princess waiting to be saved from the dragon, then I will be the prince with the sword.
If you are a bird, then I will be the big tree, giving you support.
If you are a flower, then I will be the rock, sheltering you from all the winds and rains.
If you are the one for me, then let me be the one taking care of you forever.'
So...they lived happily ever after, in the Garden of Eternal Love.
So now, you know why MADNESS always accompanies LOVE?
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*** So live your day to the fullest day, as if there is no tomorrow.**
Jenn
Friday, February 18, 2005
hihi
anyway, to 'those' who have viewed my previous page (that was already deleted, don't worry, "I" and "E" ), thanks for looking at the page and I hoped that you all will just keep your mind open and keep the story alive.
Anyway, anyway, today is such such a boring day!! (towards the end..for my Chinese orchestra training...my left hand is like going to break off from my main body soon or later...my mind is seriously dead!)
Never mind, because I already got myself and others very amused and entertained during maths lesson- so amused that I won't never ever forget that story. seriously, I still remember it after deleting it, coz I think that it's too short...hence in this new entry, I'm going to write you guys a story!!
So sit back and enjoy the next few blogs!!
Anyway, anyway, today is such such a boring day!! (towards the end..for my Chinese orchestra training...my left hand is like going to break off from my main body soon or later...my mind is seriously dead!)
Never mind, because I already got myself and others very amused and entertained during maths lesson- so amused that I won't never ever forget that story. seriously, I still remember it after deleting it, coz I think that it's too short...hence in this new entry, I'm going to write you guys a story!!
So sit back and enjoy the next few blogs!!
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