tong hua:)

hmm today's sch is rather crappy in a sense..free periods here and there ( maths periods) ..

chemistry lecture was rather fun with that interesting lecturer..kinda liked the way he teaches..cool..funny..then bio lecture was Zzzzzzz ( eyes opened, but in screen-saver mode)..econs was rather funny..because everyone wanna sleep but had to keep awake, in case that woman call us to stand at the back of the LT....chem tutorial was rather ok ba ( oh ya, i finally figured out NMR!! thanks to eric....he kinda died when he taught me that..coz i kept asking him to repeat and repeat and repeat and repeat what he said..)..then gp..then PE...and nothing more in sch liao.

but life aft sch was rather interesting today..saw a 12 oclock..( eric would know who im referring to...but im not a stalker loh..it's just that 'it' lives in the same neighbourhood as me la..but 'it' fulfill all 5 criteria of the tall, dark, honest thingy.....)

hmm mixing with that right type of friends...where did i read this from? hmm cant remember.

at times, i truly feel as though im a whale, in a river, when i actually belonged to the sea.

maybe it's just my crappy mood once again..the mood whereby i truly dun feel like doing anything but just stare into space..im tired. I wanna run away from everything..but i cant....and now, the only thing i can do is to rest all my burdens on my bestest best friend, Jesus....sometimes im just simply guilty about not following all my promises made to him...sometimes i just cant find the determination and perservence to fulfill the promises...im guilty of that...Lord, i just pray that in what things i do, grant me with the perservence and determination to fulfill the promises i made to you.

Just grant me the strength to overcome all these problems, to go through this period of difficulty...just grant me the strength to just believe in you...and do whatever you command me to do.
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sometimes, there's something that i always wanna tell...wanna ask...wanna say...but eventually nothing comes out of my mind..maybe it's because im kinda indecisive,..maybe sometimes i just shouldnt think too much, consider too much, just do whatever that needs to be done....but can i? im not sure...im really not sure...im just kinda helpless and i hate it this way.

anyway, dun ask me whether im alright. Just stand next to me.