Unknowingly, the first week of sch has past:) and what awaits us ahead is...three free days..of free time, rest, more family bonding time,..three days of sunshine:)..Learnt a lot today..as in, learning from lectures, as well as from the daily experiences....the heart is a powerful tool, as we can use it to store wonderful memories, as well as to hide our secrets. the heart is a powerful device, we can use it to feel..:) what is seen is just temporary. what is unseen, yet felt by the heart is for eternity. :) yet what you think that last for eternity, didnt last. Instead, what you have always taken for granted, seems to have crawl into your heart.

heart. <3>
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glad that the econ powerpoint presentation went well..though my voice was kinda shaking. I guess that it's shaking , because im unprepared..but i kinda like econ lesson a bit, though it's kinda of a shooting gallery thingy at times. today, she was saying that many people forgot how to do the calculations question ( and she was looking at me..opps).....hahas..nvm...she is still nice. at least.

michelle peggy peggy pek is nice today:) she is forever sweet and nice. she kinda knows what im thinking, what i like..even without i openly saying it. She bought me the crystal key chain thingy..3 hearts<3..that>

im going a bit cranky and crazy these days. out of my usual self. i just cant help it. crazy dreams.

today's chem test is arghh..i have decided to not sit near anyone when there is a test. I just cant concentrate..kinda constricted..werid me. but i like sitting with claire. crazy gals together.

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hmm talking abt b-day gifts...i know what im gonna give peggy for her bday...im gonna help her wrap someone up..hahas...though that person is not too great or nice..hahas... :)

The Last Day of Holidays

The last day of school holidays...
Mixed Feelings...
Happy that I kinda spent my holidays in a meaningful way, getting touched with my inner most feelings, knowing what i want..it's kinda discovering yourself once again..brand new discovery...as well as spending more time with my family :)
Kinda upset that I did not finish up the work that Im supposed to finish..and the exams are kinda coming up...
Watched many cartoons on fri..kind of a cartoon marathon..hahas..barbie cartoon was silly but meaningful though. watched it with my sis. It taught us that being popular isnt everything. In the story, it showed us how ordinary Barbie tried to be popular, even at the expense of her friends, which was wrong. Nevertheless, the ending was nice. Anyway, come to think of it, I realised that as we grow up, we seemed to lose the core set of values and beliefs that we used to have. Isnt it? What is important is not being popular. It is being yourself. Just Yourself. Sometimes trying too hard to blend it isnt good.
Kinda sad that my dou dou show ( forgot what the show at 7pm is called in english..:) is ending! haiz..oh well...

Oh, yesterday i went to the family day thingy with my mum and sis:) dad was kinda lazy ( the usual him)...the food was super spicy la, and i looked as though i just swallowed fire after eating it!! crazy me..and there was a police roadshow thingy. went there, and they were giving out free emergency for every adult..so i thought that it would be good to have one at home..so i went to take..and the police officer gave me that ' girl, it's only for adults' look..super pissed..anyway he gave me in the end:) and sis won another competition again..it's colouring competition this time..

Today is a rainy rainy day :( but i kinda liked the smell of rain, the feel of the wind..cooool...
Just read karmen's blog..yupp..the 25th October date at 2010:) at the huge ferrais wheel!! :)

My mind is in a complete blank. Complete blank. I just dont what to do.

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Yesterday I had a dream. A werid dream.
I dreamt that our clique went to Integrated Resort at Marina Bay, for some sort of class chalet. It was very fun, because i actually dreamt of the bus journey there. Brandon was saying that paying $1.60 for a ride ( with only four stops) was super expensive, while irwin and karmen were arguing whether the bus was in the right direction ( while the bus journey only got 4 stops, before detouring back to the terminal), then me and claire were just sitting down, next to one another, sleeping..hahas..just too tired to say anything.

Well, later we got off the bus, then headed for the chalet thingy...just like our class chalet..the bungalow we got were slightly bigger...( or is it that we had fewer people..anyway, it's a dream). The scenery there was fantastic...hmm and that's where my dream ended. Short and sweet in a way. Kinda thinking whether we guys would really go to the IR together...a few years later down the road.

hmm kinda liked the analogy on karmen's blog - that friendship is just like bracelets...hmm it can be earrings...necklaces..rings...:) a woman will never complain of having too many earrings. Trust me.
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Love the song of the shoulder thingy by sun. Soothing music, just listening to her music just makes me feel nice....u feel as though you are in a green field, with lots of birds chirrrrrrrpping...the sun shining brightly than ever...soo nice.

I wanna be strong.

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crappy day yesterday though..hahas..was just reading up on my demand and supply at night, and to my horror, i actually see the pages flipping somewhere at the corner of my mind or something...dreamt of something else to..was rather horrified when it seems to resemble a bit of today..freaking day..

hmm nvm...today i sorta just lost control and walked away. Was rather pissed off...felt like running at that time, but my bag was sorta in the way,so i walked.

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It's increasingly frustrating, when the more you tried to clear things up, and somehow you feel as though you made things worse. I think it did, and im angry with myself for making it worse. It's not that i didnt want to make things clear. It is just that i want to minimse the hurt done. It's not just one person's fault. It's both.

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Im just happpy again.

new purpose everyday. new motivation. new me. :)

hahas..just feeling rather randomly. once again, my house felt like a jurond bird park undergoing renovations. With all the birds chirpppppping outside the huge windows, with the smell of fresh grass, the touch of the wind...nice..plus the drilling upstairs.( haiz..it kinda spoils the scenery but it's ok:) happy me.....

yesterday was totally a great day..cg totally starts my day in a nice way..fellowship..kinda like the part of the rough pebbles in the stream, constantly rubbing against each other, and eventually every pebble will be smooth and nice!:) then it was the canning thingy...at first i thgt it was just collecting money for busking..but i guessed it got it all mixed up..hmm so when i reached there, i was like..???..coz i hate asking people for money u know..anyway thanks to Lord, i finally have the courage to ask each and everyone for donations ( and i mean everyone)..it's kinda the never-say-die spirit..refuse to let every opportunity just slip past me..hahas..and from that i learnt something too. Elderly people, young guys, young couples and mothers with kids are generous.:0

hmm it was really great yesterday...coz everytime im discouraged by the overwhelming number of people who just shook their heads, who just walked faster and faster as i approached them, there will always be people after that, who would donate :)..everytime im slightly discouraged, there's kinda a voice challenging me , asking whether im just gonna give up...and of course, i didnt.

:) love love love love. :) love for God, love for family, love for friends...
love is patient, love is kind..:)
My heart feels much lighter now. Much lighter.
Is it because i have learnt to let things go now?

:) hope so.

Love sought is good, but given unsought, is better.-- William Shakespeare

hmm these 3 weeks...time really really flies, no matter how hard we tried to hold onto it..hmm..

week 1 was shopping, shopping and still shopping. wanted to get certain things done but as usual, i cant concentrate and ended up wasting more time. :(

week 2 was definitely the great chalet week!!

day 1: it was the moving in day! went to supermarket and bought lots of stuff...then moved in..cant really remember much, except the fact that brandon nagged at us for not washing our feet and he kept on boiling water! went cycling..anyhow cycled and lost control of my bike..then banged straight into many many trees ( now i got many bruises and blue-blacks!! 9 in total!! :( ..) ...cycling was fun..it gives you the fast feeling...it makes you feel the wind...and hear the wind too...

day 2: woke up in the morning, heard that i was talking in my sleep yesterday..cant be helped( i think that it was the games we played before leaving chalet)...then it was being chased by karmen's princess! now i offically declared the first thing im afraid of, besides my mum- im afraid of dogs with fur!!!:( super scared la..because it's rather frightening when the dog started to lick u...arghh..:( ...bbq was fun...bbq under the round round moon and the stars...the tranquil night...anyway, claire was great at cooking the chicken thighs and brandon was great at cooking chicken wings..the duo was certainly great in bbq...and i was just there randomly fanning and of course, eating loh....and we were drinking a bit when bbqing...it's funny to see karmen holding onto a liquor bottle..hahas..then oh..poor irwin got drunk after drinking so much of the 10% liquor thingy..he crazy liao..suddenly drank soo much la...then he's like a kid....just randomly wanting to eat bread..hahas...

day 3: i wanted to see the sunrise..but..it';s raining..got woken up at 6..by karmen ...or is it wei han? haiz cant be bothered la..then go back to sleep again..and that's how i missed my sunrise..haiz.... nvm..

checking out on a rainy day...rather sad..but it was fun, for the past these days ( oh gosh, i dunno how to structure my sentence liao, just bear with me ba) :)

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week 3: recovering from the chalet loh..(`i need 8 hours of sleep la..) kinda sleepy piggy me..hahas..

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Beneath the layers of ice, deep down frozen.
Once, it was alive, but ever since, it was dead once again.
Once again, years after the layers of ice covered it, sealing it, it was alive.
And now that it is alive again, how i wished that i could just frozen it and not let it live.
I just want to seal everything up, and return back to the stage whereby everything was frozen, just like the winter.

haiz..nvm just randomly typing out everything that i feel...it's ok if u guys dun understand it.
You guys never really know. ust lock it up, hl. Just forget about it. Just numb it.

Tired.

Rather tired these days. Tired of every single thing, or rather every single things around one main theme. Perhaps it is the feeling of insecurity that she feels, that made her so uptight and over-protective. But i guess it's for my own good, but it's time that she knows that she has over-stepped the boundaries and it's time for her to respect me and truly know what i want. I do not need all those material possessions on earth- all these shoes, clothes,nice stuff or money...they are worthless in my eyes.They are nothing but just stuff that are physically there, and i can live without those stuff like nice shoes and clothes. All i need is respect and understanding. That's all. And i think that's difficult for her to give now.
Nevertheless, i will wait patiently ( i hope) for that day to come.
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Yesterday's service was great, though it somehow turned into a mini sun concert.. feeling super werid, but still learnt much from it. This week is truly a week full of activities..and i truly learnt a lot this week.

To sum up, lesson learnt:
Unconditional love means putting others before yourself. To experience unconditional love, you got to give it first.

sick today :(

never felt so terrible before.:( fever, cough, sore throat,flu..all at one go. feeling like an incubator for germs, drifting in and out of dreams...wondering whether what i saw were actually images from myy dreams, or just images formed in my mind..hmm anyway im like a piggy..actually sleeping for 5 straight hours..time flies..

oh i saw a comic strip today...it was talking about a girl complaining on how fast time flies in tests and examinations ..whether it shouldnt be, coz time only flies when you are doing things that you like..super dumb la.

study.study.study. however my heart is not there. it's lost.

hmm dunno why but starting to feel more and more strained...the strain of life..:( everything is werid yesterday..it's like i was just on my way home, then a guy suddenly approached me..crazy la..and we ended up talking to one another, all the way until i reached my block..werid...

currently reading the purpose driven life book, trying hard to understand what the book is trying to say ( coz im not really myself, nor thinking these days)..Im just werid, going out of control and crazy real soon. Everything just simply werid and screwed.

Never mind, i had been thinking a lot and a lot and a lot....

Truly, God is great. The greatest evidence of his greatness is actually us. He created us in order to love us- and i mean everyone. Just think whether you can love everyone on the streets, whether you known them or not... He loves us no matter what, whether it is our skin colour, our personalities, our nationality...there is no discrimination.

hmm just did my gp essay, on how Man looks to Science for empowerment, and ended up rediscovering his fragility.Super fun, just typing the essay, doing it all over again, seeing the question in a much different light...

Now, we need God more than ever. Is it? ( sounds a bit gp..but...:0)

hmm back again today..it's that feeling again, that werid feeling that wont go away. haiz, that depressed feeling, oh well. I must try to overcome it instead of letting it overcome me!!

the current situation that now im in, can be compared to one who is thrown into a dark tunnel, without anything. No torch-lights, no handphones, no hammer..totally nothing. So in the tunnel, you just cant see anything, so the only way out - is to feel your way through. And of course, that gives me great sense of insecurity. And i hate it. I hate to be insecure. So what can i do? I told myself that through faith, everything will be overcomed. But the problem is that sometimes what we say, is not what we do. It's hard to practise what we preach, it's just hard to keep the faith going at times of great great difficulties.

soo many things to do..both physically and mentally..sometimes the mental things were much more draining than the physically ones.

i just dunno. i just dunno. i really dunno. im just helpless.

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it's just the same old routine of doing happy things to keep yourself happy. But does it fills the void within you?

haiz...

it's that emptiness within that is overwhelming, not life at times.

I wanna see with my eyes, i wanna hear with my ears, i wanna feel with my heart...

I wanna see and being perceiving, i wanna hear and understand.....

Aches

hmm strange day..kinda started it in a very werid manner. it's my sis's chinese tutor...the last time it was her saying 'happy new year' when i just woke up...and like what you guys had guessed, it's her again that started my werid day..i woke up this morning hearing her talking about squeezing the toothpaste in chinese..super weird and funny..

kinda riding an emotional roller coaster these days..(in fact i think i had been doing that since this year, n im really tired, and i just wanted all these negative feelings to disappear, or at least fade)..but luckily i still got some other channels to speak my troubles too..like God ( the ever ready friend out there or rather here, together with me)..my friends..as well as my family( mummy and sis are just one great bunch of pple to laugh at, talk to..:)

Hoping that everything will be over soon. :) oh ya, i was so pissed off today, when the stupid hospital sent me a letter ( or rather my mum)...telling us that my appointment on 17may got shifted to 26may!! i wanna protest liao. my back is really really hurting like mad..MAD...and sometimes though pple doubt me, or rather question my integrity, it just pissed me off. ( if u doubt, then i really dunno what to say. I shall not swear, for a Yes will always be a Yes, and a No..the truth will stay always.

oh ya, back to today. Today is a werid but happy day!! kinda feeling sick for the past few days..back pain, headaches, and emotional stuff. but today went out to eat for dinner ( remember that it's mothers' day tomorrow?) yupps, so today we went out to eat!! hahas..super funny la..

coz it's raining at first and we were kinda worried that we couldnt get a cab..( cab today, because daddy is not in town these few days) ..yupps, finally got a cab and went there. super funny, coz we were acting like mad women...eating crab= most unglam thing that happened today!!

first, my sis spilled chilli sauce ( the crab one) on her self..and in her desperate attempt to clean it off, she spilled more on herself instead. *laugh*

second, i laughed at her, while im trying hard to squeeze the meat out of the crab's legs. then i spilled the chilli sauce on myself.

third, we went to wash our hands, and once again, my sis tried to wash the stain on her pants off...but she washed the wrong spot instead. ( so her whole pants were practically wet and soaked with chilli sauce)..

so she became the laughing stock of the day.:) then we went to see the cool water sports thingy in east coast, near the seafood centre...super funny la:) seeing people trying to balance like toodlers trying to walk and stand ( but this time it's on water) :) hahas..

kinda learn something from today..the love for your mother need not just be expressed on mothers' day:)
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hmm how? im kinda losing my stand slowly. it's not that im just playing ard, but i just dun wan to hurt. that's all. I know how it feels when one's hurts. It's that terrible feeling that I wish that I never ever wanted to inflict on anyone, but do i have to, this time? hmm kinda caught in a dillemma...:(
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Life is just full of aches ( pun intended).

Just let the strong overpowering detest for life in school disappear..just ignite the passion within, and let the flame burn brightly, so brightly that it has never been before.

Just let me be able to see all those negative things about life in less importance..just let all those negative thoughts, all those perceptions about certain people, all those sensitive feelings, all those lousy feelings, all those thinking.....just let them fade in less importance. Just let me soar my wings and fly, for i feel that im caged.

Just let me run for you and you alone. Just let me worship you forever.

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The splendor of a King, clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice
All the earth rejoice

He wraps himself in Light, and darkness tries to hide
And trembles at His voice
Trembles at His voice

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God

Age to age He stands
And time is in His hands
Beginning and the end
Beginning and the end

The Godhead Three in One
Father Spirit Son
The Lion and the Lamb
The Lion and the Lamb

Name above all names
Worthy of all praise
My heart will sing
How great is our God

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God

hmm hahas..super happy now..perhaps it's the daniel powter -"bad day" song...hmm...happy me :)

hahas..today is a great great day ba!! 2 more days to my bday!! getting a bit excited..hahas..maths was totally great today!!( i simply love maths!) and the rest of the lectures were managable...then chem was kinda horrifying la..( but today he didnt shoot anyone of us, so it's ok.:) ...then it's boring gp, then exciting pe. Pretty funny during gp...went over to the tennis court and from there, we can see lots of stuff, like temptation island, tempo island, and permanent island...hahas...laughing a lot at crazy stuff la..what balls, cleavage thingy, looks, personality and responsibility..hahas..

rushed a bit to catch my bus..:) and i managed to catch it k..but you know, he's not there la. :( ..nvm..:)

im a blissful happy bday gal to be. :) hmm kinda piggy...i wanna eat a lot...jumbo, swensens..hmm recently, im kinda obsessed with the neoprint machine for werid reasons..:) hahas...my bday is coming!! ( feeling kinda retarded...to only feel that my bday is coming when it's kinda 2 days away...but what makes bday nice is the anticipation of gifts and food to come, isnt it??)

hahas...random me now...i simply think that tall guys are cute. :) *( look at my one o'clock and you know why)..

many things happened over last weekend...from crashing of com...to...many things la. But one thing will never change. Im still as stubborn as before. That's me.

Lame

Today's a rather lame day..finally met someone that is much much much more lamer than alvin..hahaz..alvin's sworn brother? juz laming..:)

rather crappy and rubbishy today..supposed to go queensway to shop but in the end, we went there and walked ard a bit, then realised that we r a bit too early and took a bus to town..and then stupid irwin saw my ezlink card!!! super embarrassing..that stupid photo..i hope he deletes it and then forgot all about it....( and later, i was soo stupid and jian ting saw my ezlink card too....-.-..)

town is nice, at least for not going town for like at least 2 months,...kinda hanging out at Bugis these days..wanted to buy my earrings but in the end, it's too expensive..wanted to find a look-alike for it...but oh well, it's just difficult. ( it's hard to go shopping, when you dun hav the money..:(...and as usual, irwin ended up buying more stuff than me..hmm he this poor boy, today is a rather bad bad bad day for him..the atm card, then the security check, then the usher dress code and more..haiz..jia you ba..

hmm service is nice today..it's kinda funny to realise how God has truly planned your life as well as my life...i was kinda reading the devotional of putting first things first,and guess what? today's devotional mention a bit of putting first things first!!!

hmm after serv, we went for dinner..and then me and jt went high liao...( im high due to the drilling at now...super noisy and im crazy enough to do a gp aq question during the drilling...and he's high coz he lack sleep..)..two high people= crapping on the train la, like no one's business.....the talk about he and irwin's child- keenan...and other more rubbishy and random stuff about height, criteria and more...hahas...kinda killed each other on the way back home..:)

from today onwards, i promised myself that im not going to get myself hurt anymore.

hmm im back!! :)

today's a rather werid day though..hmm...shall not elaborate, but today sure feels werid, just cant help but felt as though i have seen masks...faked expressions...you can just feel it using your heart, and i often use my gut feeling ( or rather heart ) to feel, so im kinda sensitive to these stuffs..hmm just cant help but feel that moo moo is kinda upset over the ponning thingy,we really really didnt co-ordinate to pon school on that same day today!! oh well...

learnt an important lesson though...learnt that often what we wish, we dun get what we want. So in the first place, why wish? maybe it's just to comfort us...on the superficial level..just look at my watch..haiz..it will just take me another long period of time before i get it..currently suffering from the effects of an expansionary fiscal policy- budget deficit...haiz..

yesterday was a kinda werid day too...went to the lib to study with papa, coz my house was kinda having renovations ( digging up of stuff) outside the house...super noisy la.it's rather amusing to see how someone actually blends in with the floor of the lib :) ...oh well..

i dunno why, but everytime when my birthday comes, i just wanna buy new stuff...:) ....haiz...

sssssstttttuuppiiddd renovations is on...AGAIN!!! how stupid is it. my head is cracking, splitting liao...oh did i mention that i got back my chem test? as usual, i got shot by paul cheong la..he said that im kinda long winded, writing irrevelant stuff, but the problem is :: THAT'S MY HABIT LA. WHAT CAN I DO? ANYWAY I WRITE THAT MUCH, COZ I DUNNO HOW TO DO IS TO BEGIN WITH.AND IF HE THINKS THAT SHOOTING PEOPLE IS FUN, THEN IT'S SAD, COZ HE DUN HAVE A LIFE.

tong hua:)

hmm today's sch is rather crappy in a sense..free periods here and there ( maths periods) ..

chemistry lecture was rather fun with that interesting lecturer..kinda liked the way he teaches..cool..funny..then bio lecture was Zzzzzzz ( eyes opened, but in screen-saver mode)..econs was rather funny..because everyone wanna sleep but had to keep awake, in case that woman call us to stand at the back of the LT....chem tutorial was rather ok ba ( oh ya, i finally figured out NMR!! thanks to eric....he kinda died when he taught me that..coz i kept asking him to repeat and repeat and repeat and repeat what he said..)..then gp..then PE...and nothing more in sch liao.

but life aft sch was rather interesting today..saw a 12 oclock..( eric would know who im referring to...but im not a stalker loh..it's just that 'it' lives in the same neighbourhood as me la..but 'it' fulfill all 5 criteria of the tall, dark, honest thingy.....)

hmm mixing with that right type of friends...where did i read this from? hmm cant remember.

at times, i truly feel as though im a whale, in a river, when i actually belonged to the sea.

maybe it's just my crappy mood once again..the mood whereby i truly dun feel like doing anything but just stare into space..im tired. I wanna run away from everything..but i cant....and now, the only thing i can do is to rest all my burdens on my bestest best friend, Jesus....sometimes im just simply guilty about not following all my promises made to him...sometimes i just cant find the determination and perservence to fulfill the promises...im guilty of that...Lord, i just pray that in what things i do, grant me with the perservence and determination to fulfill the promises i made to you.

Just grant me the strength to overcome all these problems, to go through this period of difficulty...just grant me the strength to just believe in you...and do whatever you command me to do.
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sometimes, there's something that i always wanna tell...wanna ask...wanna say...but eventually nothing comes out of my mind..maybe it's because im kinda indecisive,..maybe sometimes i just shouldnt think too much, consider too much, just do whatever that needs to be done....but can i? im not sure...im really not sure...im just kinda helpless and i hate it this way.

anyway, dun ask me whether im alright. Just stand next to me.

hmm im kinda liking the tong hua song again..simply love the rythmn..

hmm so many things i wanna do now..*(sudden urge)..hahas..feeling the impulse to run away from school, go to a far far away place...like Tokyo??
hahas..or go live in a house with lavender field..sweet smelling lavender (together with lots of mosquitoes and other pests)...or

go to the beach, feeling the fresh sea breeze..feeling the salty air filling ur nostrils..hmmm...or

rather go shopping...buying the bags i wanna buy...those beautiful earrings... as well as that 'with love' album that i wanna buy...hmmm...i wanna eat eat eat eat jumbo crabs..banana split icecreams...hmm i wanna sleep in the open, with the star-lit sky as my ceiling, and the earth as my bed...i wanna hold all the stars in my hands....simply sooo sooo much dreams...

hahas...day-drreaming again...:)

hmm today's maths is simply fun and great...maths tution never fails to keep me happy...despite everything..and not to mention God as well...i saw the sunrise today!! super nice...as you see a huge red ball of fire, slowly crawling up the dark skies...gradually lighting the entire life up...just like the way the earth rotate around the moon( is that correct?hmm cant remember..), i just wanna rotate my life around God and God..and only God...hmm i wanna go for service!!Im kinda suffering from withdrawal symptons...hmm :(

read the Straits time article today...about the girl who got cancer..hmm and think a lot....if even the ant struggles to survive, why cant all of us have the will to hang on and live....hmm random thinking after reading previous article of people dying (online)...hmm....
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i love love love tong hua song...i love love love orange.....and i love love love maths.....and i lve lve lve God...:)

Backbreaking experience

hmm this week..= backbreaking experience.

it's indeed amazing to see and feel God's presence everywhere even in the hospital...He just stayed with me throughout these few horrifying hours of my life, in the hospital with him.:) hmm went to SGH A&E yesterday, waited for very long before see the doctor..went for xray. I dunno why, but as I lie on the bed for the xray, fear suddenly crept in. It's just a werid feeling, but at that point of time, i really feel as though im dying la..it's silly but true, as the deafening silence of the theatre echoed....haiz..

walked around, and noticed many people... those with broken legs...bleeding arms...kinda scary....

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back pain. back aches. haiz, im kinda getting old liao. hmm this week is kinda just flying past me..chem test then...it's friday liao..and we didnt go swimming this week!! Im kinda crazy, kept on feeling like running...but these few weeks, im able to run fast!!! hmm i think it's due to the fact that i suddenly felt as though im back in crescent...back in those days ( in crescent days), we had mass run on tues and thurs...and each time, we got to run like abt 1.6 km within 10 min?? if not, we will get locked out of school, and had to run further....poor us, right?? anyway, those days were great...talking and running....

and of course, jc life is beginning to be much greater than crescent days...random crapping with claire is super funny...common interest cum discovery!! hahas...everyone is turning a bit werid and funny..kinda switching personalities...but it's ok, i think.

oh, and i made an interesting discovery today...
When i feel hungry,i would just sub-consciously go to claire's blog, to stare at the pictures of food!!!
When i kinda needed motivation...needed optimism,i will go to karmen's blog!!
When i kinda needed advice, i will go to irwin's blog..(though it's kinda dead)..
When im really bored and exercise my eye-power, i will go to eric's blog..with all the words squashed together!!

hahas...random discovery!!
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The greatest gift on earth is not diamond rings, huge bungalows, posh cars, but the gift of LIFE.

Life is the greatest gift from God. :) it's great being alive again!( after the trip to A&E)

lalalalalalala...hahas..anyway today is a great day!! yeah!!

anyway today i finally managed to buy the gift for my dear mummy's bday! hahas..super funny, coz it's like 'i thought that she doesnt know what im buying for her', while ' she knows it and is just waiting for me to ask her whether it's the correct one that she likes',..super funny la..

notice how stubborn i am..first to Bugis, then to city link, then to Bugis..then back to city hall once again...just to get the pendant which i simply saw at Bugis SK jewellery..hahas..oh well, it's just me..stubborn me..( i always happened to buy stuff from the very first shop i see..dunno why)..anyway despite the hard work, it's worth it, especially the moment i see my mummy's face lit up...with a big smile!! hahas..now she's kinda wearing the pendant everywhere..:)

anyway, i love my papa la..he's just being kind and patient, for accompanying me to go to these two places back and fro, within 5 hours plus..:) hahas..and oh yes, papa got bad taste...can tell right? just look at the way he choose things..haiz..he needs professional advice from me..hahas..anyway today's laska at Bugis was disappointing ( i wanted to eat lor mee, but the stupid uncle said that it wasnt really ready..so i settled for laska, which turned out worse..) ....

oh..before i forgot, did i tell u guys abt the disgusting books me and papa see in kino?? the books are disgusting la..actually showing nude pictures, and people in super misleading poses and disgusting poses!!! oh my my!! anyway, i liked the other two books...one on babies ( showing different pictures of babies..like them yawning together, stretching their hands, sitting under the piano..arrr..so cute!!) ...as well as the love book- it said that " The most beautiful things on earth cannot be seen or touched, instead they can only be felt by the heart" ...nice right?

today's seafood trip is super funny..at first we were kinda worried that it may rain...and you know that east coast is a low lying area..but in the end, it rained after we finished eating and left east coast!! yeah, praise Lord..prayers work k! anyway back to the eating part, we kinda ordered all fried stuff la...prawns, fried scallops, fried you tiao, mee, satay, and my fav chilli crab!! :) yeah!

hmm today is a great day....except for the fact that i cant go church..*sobs*...i wanna goooooooooo...
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Use your heart to see things that can't be seen or touched.:)

The traditional clock has 12 numbers, 1-12. And out of these, i love 1 and 2 o'clock...while karmen loves 11 o'clock and maybe 9 o'clock...=P hahas...

hmm these few days have been kinda werid to be in a sense..as i totally dont know what to do exactly, how to solve problems, and the ultimate question of what am i here for...anyway, thanks to God who is forever great, he sorta indicated something to me...

All these while, i had been trying hard to solve things on my own, to take things at my own hands. It's time to let go and let God.

" Those who hope in the Lord
They will renew their strength,
They will soar on winds like eagles,
They will run and not grow weary,
They will walk and not be faint."

today's chapel was a greeeeeaaaat one, though i kinda lost my voice during that time. =P