hmm suddenly i have decided..maybe i will not bring my handphone to school anymore..dun even switch it on..so distracting la, kept playing with it...

suddenly realised that my grades were falling like crazy...others told me that it will never happen..coz all the while i have been coping quite well, but this time it is different. And i know it myself. Nothing last forever. For this examinations *(promos)..i only put in efforts for maths and chem *( which still couldnt give me a A).....i know that, and as for the rest, i dun wan to say anything. It's not that i dun say anything these days, but it's just like i dun wanna say anything.

Many people told me that i will never fail, but who knows? No one knows that Titanic would sink in the end, when they thought that it was supposed to be the unsinkable grand ship.

I have enough.

I wanna be the real me.

Just watch me.

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hmm maybe today is the very very very last time that im going to step out of my house for other reasons, except dinner,lunch,breakfast and school. Even my mum commented that im stepping out of house too often. And i know her. When she starts to comment on it, it's really too much liao.

still cant believe that i took the wrong bus in the wrong direction from bugis. ended up walking all the way from the beginning of kallang, *(near Lavender i think)..back to Bugis. Anyway, hey thanks malcolm, thanks for calling me and giving me the correct directions to get back home....and not forgetting the fact that you continued talking to me all the way until i reached home..and even welcomed me...hahah....feeling rather stupid after taking the wrong bus...

** how i wish that i never truly existed ** how i wish that i wasn't really human to begin with ** at least, they dont study to live, or rather live to study **