sick again....poor me...sick for the entire holiday..for the same reason : sore throat.

every twelve hour..i gotta take...4 yellow tablets...4 red tablets..1 blue tablet..4 soil color tablets...and two TABLE SPOONS of super duper bitter chinese medicine...poor me...and due to these medicine...i got stomach ache...so more medicine added...haiz..medicine day today...haiz...

gottta cramp for econs...but my mind refuses to...my mind is drifting off to somewhere each time i touched my books...except maths...haiz...

listening to twins' songs..very nice....soothing....

Soon, everything will end.

Soon, the youth day holiday will come..and then i can go out! yeah!

Soon, i dun have to study anymore..

Soon, i dun even have to breathe anymore..( but that will be about 90 years later..i wanna live till 100 plus...)

haha....
dunnno why...although the term exams are approaching...about two days later, im not even panicked...not my usual frantic self...in fact im looking forward to them..so tat everything will end..

tok to karmen yesterday...and she told me that we all should live life to the fullest, as though today is the last day of your life...

her words made me reflect..a lot on my life...

and today i went out with my family..and the similar scenairo is shown again....everyone wanted to eat fried kway tiao...and i wanted to eat porridge..coz of the stomach aches...but instead i was forced to eat something else...

it is my mum's way of loving me? forcing me to eat things that i dun wan to eat? all my life...i tried to compromise...giving in..but why cant she just give in to me for once?

i simply hate her.

Hate her. hate her.hate her. hate her.hate her. hate her.

i wanted to say that aloud..but in the end i didnt. because words have no eyes. they can hurt anyone.